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On Being 'A Horrible Person' 
14th-Oct-2009 07:15 pm
Today I got my English essay back.  I received an 'A.'  I will agree that this is a good thing, and I would have been dissatisfied with anything less.  At the same time, I recognize that this makes me A Horrible Person.  Why, you ask?  I would have been disappointed had I not received an 'A' when I wrote the majority of the paper  a. while having not slept for about 2 days and b. while high or otherwise made insane by the excitement of The Horrors concert.  What makes me A Horrible Person is that I expected to get an 'A' on a paper at UC Berkeley when I wrote it under the influence (seeing The Horrors is pretty much the equivalent of tripping).  I know that there are probably students who spent a lot of time and effort on their papers and received lower grades, and I feel sort of bad about that.  At the same time, I am pretty happy even if it makes me a spoiled, awful person.  Perhaps seeing The Horrors gave me temporary superpowers.
I am also A Horrible Person because I have been spending too much money.  It makes me think of Wordsworth: "getting and spending we lay waste our powers," which then makes me feel like a dork on top of feeling like A Horrible Person.  Some of it has been necessary, like a new black coat to replace the one that I killed and a new pair of boots (also killed; ended up wearing them in the rain and getting my feet soaked).  I probably could have gone without the second pair of boots, the leather gloves, the tights (I have this disease where I always have to be buying tights with odd patterns), and the cape.  The problem is that they are all amazing, and I have a weakness for quirky clothing.  The boots are patent leather beatle boots, the leather gloves are elbow-length (I have been meaning to get some like them), and the cape is vintage (60s) and made of black velvet with a black-and-white striped lining.  See?  I am A Horrible Person.  I also plan to spend more money in the near future on tattoos.  As of this moment, I plan to get a stylized jellyfish on my forearm and a quote from Hamlet (possibly somewhere on my shoulder).  My dorkiness knows no bounds.
On a random tangent, I am now definitely going to see Eddie Izzard in January.
P.S. I posted something.  It must be the apocalypse.
15th-Oct-2009 03:25 am (UTC)
Ahahahahaha I like the fact that your being "A Horrible Person" directly relates to The Horrors *and* is a pun on it. <3

Congrats on your essay, but have you ever even not gotten an A on a paper before? XD
15th-Oct-2009 03:29 am (UTC)
I've not gotten 'A's. It usually just makes me go extra insane on the next paper. ^^;;; Haha, yay for puns!
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